How Our Generational Parenting Practices Were Interrupted
I didn’t understand with my first child how much historic trauma had damaged my ability to be touched and express love with my kids. I ...
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- Jul 28, 2022
Strike One, Strike Two, Strike Three
My entry into motherhood wasn't sunshine and daisies. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I was scared. And I remained scared for...
- Jul 10, 2022
We were not ready to start a family.
It’s almost 1am here. I’m wide awake after cleaning up the vomit filled bed of my eight year old. I’m also pregnant with my third child,...
- Jul 10, 2022
You never fully get the true picture of your own childhood until you parent your own child
Listen, I never liked kids before having my own. I never cared about childhood development. I never knew babies were whole humans that...
- Jul 10, 2022
My mother is a grandmother now.
"My mother is a grandmother now she says to me let’s catch up so I put my book down take a deep breath say sure and she is already...
- Jul 10, 2022
Nine months later, the same woman who counseled me for my abortion delivered my perfect baby boy
I knew I was pregnant. That’s not why I made an appointment at the family planning clinic. It wasn’t my first time in this situation,...
- Jun 29, 2022
I was terrified, alone and ashamed.
It was 1969. A few months earlier a man I was on a date with had forcibly raped me. Now I was in Australia at a college friends sheep...
- Jun 26, 2022
Because it was the right thing for me
This photo is from a time when my then-husband was out fishing and I was, simply put, not okay. My body was broken in many ways after a...
- Jun 26, 2022
I was drugged
I was drugged and raped in college. If I hadn't miscarried I would have aborted. To this day I don't even talk about it with my husband...
- Jun 24, 2022
I Have Never Told Anyone About This
I had an abortion after my divorce. I slept with just about anyone I could because I felt empty. My daughter was gone to her dads most...
- Nov 20, 2021
Rage shows up sometimes.
When we were already late, but I chose to squeeze in 45 seconds to run the vacuum; which coincidentally, is enough time for both children...
- Oct 20, 2021
I lost something
I realized I had lost something I hadn’t had before, after touching base with my new neighbor, years after I had lost it. She was...
- Dec 13, 2020
My daughter lied.
My daughter lied. My sweet, quiet, honest (wasn’t she?!) daughter lied. And not just a little lie, but a big one - the kind with real...
- Dec 13, 2020
What right did those people have to take her baby?
You’re getting fat. What are you pregnant? I smiled, having known that this moment was coming. She sat across from me, her own belly...
- Dec 13, 2020
It was a shock to me.
Trigger Warning: This story contains subject matter relating to suicide. It was a cool November morning. I was cleaning up the kitchen...
- Dec 13, 2020
You never really get rid of that muscle memory.
I don’t usually talk about my pregnancy, birthing story, or the first two years of my son’s life. I stick to more upbeat topics. I was...
- Dec 13, 2020
They don’t tell you so much. They can’t.
"They don’t tell you so much. They can’t. No one can tell you what it will be like to be ten days overdue, lost in a hazy world of...
- Dec 13, 2020
They had to sedate her
Trigger Warning: This story contains subject matter relating to suicide. I work in the deli at Hannaford. I am in the chicken room...
- Dec 7, 2020
Incompetent Cervix
Five days after my due date, there was still no baby, no effacement, and I was not dilated at all. Being diagnosed with an “incompetent...
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