Momologues

We were not ready to start a family.

It’s almost 1am here. I’m wide awake after cleaning up the vomit filled bed of my eight year old. I’m also pregnant with my third child,...

I know my healing continues as I share my story

My husband and I already had two beautiful, healthy children that were well into self-sufficient ages. Two children were all we could...

My mother is a grandmother now.

"My mother is a grandmother now she says to me let’s catch up so I put my book down take a deep breath say sure and she is already...

I was terrified, alone and ashamed.

It was 1969. A few months earlier a man I was on a date with had forcibly raped me. Now I was in Australia at a college friends sheep...

Two different choices can evoke the same emotions

"I never had to grapple with a decision that would change my life one way or the other. When I found myself pregnant in a toxic ...

Because it was the right thing for me

This photo is from a time when my then-husband was out fishing and I was, simply put, not okay. My body was broken in many ways after a...

I fell pregnant again 7 months later

I was only 23, just started my first “big girl” job. I was engaged, but my fiancé was involved in an unpaid apprenticeship. My god we...

I Have Never Told Anyone About This

I had an abortion after my divorce. I slept with just about anyone I could because I felt empty. My daughter was gone to her dads most...

Rage shows up sometimes.

When we were already late, but I chose to squeeze in 45 seconds to run the vacuum; which coincidentally, is enough time for both children...

My daughter lied.

My daughter lied. My sweet, quiet, honest (wasn’t she?!) daughter lied. And not just a little lie, but a big one - the kind with real...