Momologues

Mar 23

Birthday Cake

I sat alone at the kitchen table. My daughter on a stool at the counter with her breakfast. I started to sob. again. A continuation from...

Jan 2

My Son Didn't Mean to Hate Me.

My first husband was dissatisfied with his mother and when later in our marriage, he fell on hard times, he made it clear that he...

Jan 2

My mother looked down at her hands and said…"I’m pregnant."

I would say my life has been defined in a large part by the lack of agency my mother had in her choice to have children. She was married...

Jul 28, 2022

Strike One, Strike Two, Strike Three

My entry into motherhood wasn't sunshine and daisies. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I was scared. And I remained scared for...

Jul 11, 2022

I had never felt so much love as when she was placed in my arms.

I spent eight months worrying about what it would be like when I finally went into labor. I had heard so many stories about painful birth...

Jul 10, 2022

I know my healing continues as I share my story

My husband and I already had two beautiful, healthy children that were well into self-sufficient ages. Two children were all we could...

Jul 10, 2022

I can’t believe this choice is being taken away from us

I spent the first night of my son’s life with only him in the hospital, as my husband was tired and needed to go home to sleep. I didn’t...

Jul 10, 2022

You never fully get the true picture of your own childhood until you parent your own child

Listen, I never liked kids before having my own. I never cared about childhood development. I never knew babies were whole humans that...

Jun 27, 2022

Two different choices can evoke the same emotions

"I never had to grapple with a decision that would change my life one way or the other. When I found myself pregnant in a toxic ...

Jun 26, 2022

Because it was the right thing for me

This photo is from a time when my then-husband was out fishing and I was, simply put, not okay. My body was broken in many ways after a...

Jun 25, 2022

I fell pregnant again 7 months later

I was only 23, just started my first “big girl” job. I was engaged, but my fiancé was involved in an unpaid apprenticeship. My god we...

Nov 20, 2021

The Gift

“And be REALLY CAREFUL, Mommie, it’s REALLY BREAKABLE!” Alden handed me the little package as if it contained a bubble still swirling...

Oct 20, 2021

I lost something

I realized I had lost something I hadn’t had before, after touching base with my new neighbor, years after I had lost it. She was...

Dec 14, 2020

‘Who will hold me?’ I wondered.

My last month of pregnancy I was wondering where my friends were. Busy with their business and not inviting me their fun. I guess due to...

Dec 14, 2020

Hear you, hearing you.

We have a funny saying in our home: ‘hear you, hearing you.’ It’s the not-subtle reminder that your children will take on, and repeat,...

Dec 14, 2020

This baby felt foreign to me and I couldn't tell anyone.

I know now that I experienced postpartum depression with both of my boys, but to different degrees. Back then, there really wasn't a...

Dec 14, 2020

We knew prenatally that my daughter had Down Syndrome

The labor of my second daughter came on fast, and on our way into Boston, I almost gave birth to her on the Mass Pike. We made it to...

Dec 14, 2020

You never really get rid of that muscle memory.

I don’t usually talk about my pregnancy, birthing story, or the first two years of my son’s life. I stick to more upbeat topics. I was...

Dec 14, 2020

My partner deserves it. I do too.

I’d done the single parent deal, and the “force it to work because we have a kid” situation. I’d made multiple attempts over the first 6...

Dec 14, 2020

Can I see your vagina?

“Mom, can I see your vagina?!” “No honey.” “Ok moma, it’s beautiful.”