I was drugged

I was drugged and raped in college. If I hadn't miscarried I would have aborted. To this day I don't even talk about it with my husband because the experience was so horrifying that I just need to forget it all. I can't imagine raising the child of the person who did that to me, alone, and not being able to finish college or have all the experiences I had in my 20's. Now I'm a mother of two, the most wonderful experience of my life, but it's fucking hard. I have a solid marriage. We have good jobs. I have the support (physical, financial and emotional) from both sides of family. I really don't think I could have provided a healthy life for that child had I been forced to.