The Sonogram Tech Gave Me No Signs
Three. For some reason three was the magic number in my head. Number one was so hard to conceive, to carry, to birth, to nurture. Number...
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- Jul 28, 2022
Strike One, Strike Two, Strike Three
My entry into motherhood wasn't sunshine and daisies. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I was scared. And I remained scared for...
- Jul 13, 2022
The sound of that heartbeat cemented my faith
My husband was out of town for the day of my scheduled checkup. Home with our first born (via emergency cesarean), I was well into my...
- Jul 11, 2022
I had never felt so much love as when she was placed in my arms.
I spent eight months worrying about what it would be like when I finally went into labor. I had heard so many stories about painful birth...
- Jul 10, 2022
We were not ready to start a family.
It’s almost 1am here. I’m wide awake after cleaning up the vomit filled bed of my eight year old. I’m also pregnant with my third child,...
- Jul 10, 2022
Nine months later, the same woman who counseled me for my abortion delivered my perfect baby boy
I knew I was pregnant. That’s not why I made an appointment at the family planning clinic. It wasn’t my first time in this situation,...
- Jun 28, 2022
I wanted that baby so much
I had a complete hysterectomy that removed my uterus and a baby with a healthily beating heart the night before Roe v Wade was...
- Nov 1, 2021
One, Two, Three, Four, Five
Driving through Utah on our way to Zion National Park, I keep checking my phone, looking for some bars. I can’t believe that our fate is...
- Dec 14, 2020
‘Who will hold me?’ I wondered.
My last month of pregnancy I was wondering where my friends were. Busy with their business and not inviting me their fun. I guess due to...
- Dec 14, 2020
What right did those people have to take her baby?
You’re getting fat. What are you pregnant? I smiled, having known that this moment was coming. She sat across from me, her own belly...
- Dec 14, 2020
Another poop one.
Everyone always asks if women really poop during birth. Yes, you absolutely do. And no, you absolutely do not care. ~~~
- Dec 14, 2020
This baby felt foreign to me and I couldn't tell anyone.
I know now that I experienced postpartum depression with both of my boys, but to different degrees. Back then, there really wasn't a...
- Dec 14, 2020
It was a shock to me.
Trigger Warning: This story contains subject matter relating to suicide. It was a cool November morning. I was cleaning up the kitchen...
- Dec 14, 2020
We knew prenatally that my daughter had Down Syndrome
The labor of my second daughter came on fast, and on our way into Boston, I almost gave birth to her on the Mass Pike. We made it to...
- Dec 14, 2020
"Something's coming out and we don't know what it is!"
I was lucky to have my sister, ten years younger, living in town when I was pregnant. She came to all the birth classes with me, was...
- Dec 14, 2020
Baby absorbing baby.
Trigger Warning: This story contains subject matter relating to Vanishing Twin Syndrome. We had tried just about everything to get...
- Dec 14, 2020
Poop.
My husband promised not to tell me if I pooped during labor. Of course, I asked him anyway. He just stared at me - terrified. ~~~
- Dec 14, 2020
You never really get rid of that muscle memory.
I don’t usually talk about my pregnancy, birthing story, or the first two years of my son’s life. I stick to more upbeat topics. I was...
- Dec 14, 2020
Momma bear and nipple stimulation
With my second child, my water broke nine days early with the full moon, so baby was not really in any mood to join us yet. But we needed...
- Dec 14, 2020
The day he didn't show up.
I’m going to start in the middle, on the day my husband forgot to show up. The day I gave birth to my second child. He showed up in body...
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