Momologues

Birthday Cake

I sat alone at the kitchen table. My daughter on a stool at the counter with her breakfast. I started to sob. again. A continuation from...

My mother looked down at her hands and said…"I’m pregnant."

I would say my life has been defined in a large part by the lack of agency my mother had in her choice to have children. She was married...

How Our Generational Parenting Practices Were Interrupted

I didn’t understand with my first child how much historic trauma had damaged my ability to be touched and express love with my kids. I ...

It’s hard to be a mom when the word MOTHER somewhere in your psyche terrifies you

My childhood was filled with intense emotional and physical abuse. My mother was a single mom in the 80’s. My mother was mentally ill, ...

You never fully get the true picture of your own childhood until you parent your own child

Listen, I never liked kids before having my own. I never cared about childhood development. I never knew babies were whole humans that...

We all are born, we live and we all die, but fuck cancer.

Birth and death seem to go hand in hand. The immense feelings, emotions, and experiences that come with motherhood are unexplainable, ...

I never asked

A different twist. My mom had two abortions when I was a teenager. Granted, she was seventeen when I was born...three months into being...

Blessed and torn.

I do not remember the first time my mother told me that God wanted me to be her child. I do remember she told me that she wasn’t able to...